Day 28/366

My older one woke up earlier than the younger one this morning and so after she drank her milk ( which is the first thing they do everyday), Appu and she were playing together (picture below) for a while. We had to wake the younger one as we would otherwise be late to go to church. If we miss the 9.30 am train, then the next one is only half an hour later. The church service begins at 10 am and we try and be there at from the beginning. The weather was chilly this morning but the girls and we were well dressed for the weather and they have now settled in to this new place and the climate. I was told how kids easily adjust when moving into a new place but I had my worries and concerns. My girls have definitely struggled in their initial days but they have been very resilient and accommodative. We reached reached church on time and the girls attended their Sunday bible class too. I'm very happy to know that they are enjoying it so far and pray they continue to do so.

After church we got home (picture above of kids and Appu walking towards the bus stop) and the girls played for a while with each other. I wanted to take a quick nap as I was feeling very tired and had some sleep log from previous nights. The stress and worry over our house hunt is getting more tense as the date till when we can stay in this temporary accommodation is fast approaching. There is so much to be done even after we can say yes to a house we like, not that we have even reached that stage. But the very thought of it is sometimes taking so much of our head space.

Today is my grandmother's birthday. First one since she passed away on the 2nd of May 2023. I was lucky to have had the chance to meet her just before she passed. My maternal grandparents have and will always hold a very special place in my heart till the day I die. One of my very best childhood memories were spend with them. I was definitely blessed with one of the best grandparents and I'm very proud of that. There is just so much to be thankful to them for. Most of what I am now, apart from my parent ofcourse, I owe it to my grandparents. So on this special day of hers, knowing I cant wish her and video call her, felt miserable. I kept looking at all the pictures and videos I have of hers and spend the night alone after the girls had gone tot bed. Cried my way to bed. I miss her very much and it definitely is one of my unbearable loses till date.

Have you lost someone very dear to you? How are you dealing with it?

Love

Ammu